So its true, hooking up with someone else really does help you get over someone. What I didnt know was how even that wouldnt be enough after a while, you may just casually hook up with someone every now and then but sooner or later you start wanting more. You start wishing you didn’t have to pretend to be just friends in front of everyone. I no longer wonder if I made a mistake turning my ex down when he came back with all his excuses and apologies but now I wonder if hooking up with someone else wont leave me hurting as well because this friendship is getting all kinds of mixed feelings. Sigh….my love life is one giant roller coaster of emotion and right now, I’m dangling upside down slammed up against my seat belt. If it aint one thing its another. My only solution is time and distance, if its still there after we’ve both moved on then maybe its suppose to work out and then we’ll have a billion more problems to deal with but if its not there then these memories were wonderful. I don’t regret anything!

It’s been a while since I’ve been back on tumblr. Can’t wait til I get my own laptop back tomorrow. It’s a lovely day, I think I’ll go bike riding with my brother.